Up until last week, I was living my life in London, broke and unmotivated, when my boss suggested I move to Portugal. “Don’t tempt me with a plane ticket,” I said. He kept his end of the bargain and so did I. Now, I sit in the magical city of Porto.
As my beautiful journey back home is almost reaching an end, I’ve found myself bursting with happiness. The last two days have happened for a reason. I was leaving work and the security guard stopped me. “Aren’t you a past pupil at this school?” he asked. “Yes, I replied.” After 9 years, he remembered me.
Today is weigh day (Weight Watchers) and after a week that was slightly different to the rest (more bread, more red meat and just in general a different eating schedule), I was afraid I would put on weight.
I instead stayed the same. I was quite pleased, seeing as I had already lost 6.2kg in the last month. This upcoming week is school holidays (again!) and that means more changes in routine.
Below, are quotes from the autobiography Believe It, Be It. It’s a weight loss book written by the winner of Season Five – The Biggest Loser, Alison Vincent. I read this book about one year ago and it was such a good read, I finished it in one day.
As I am consumed and obsessed with my weight, especially lately – I wanted to re-read the book and underline the parts that speak to me. A lot of it is concerned with low self-esteem, which I fall victim of, too.I have put the quotes most applicable and meaningful to me, in bold. I hope these inspire you.
A few days ago, I admitted to a friend that I feel like I’ve hit my rock bottom – she, a former drug addict, told me that when you hit rock bottom, you will do absolutely anything it takes to get out of it. I guess in that sense, I did not hit rock bottom – but I sure felt like life had been smothering me.
The big things – like my self esteem, self image, weight and everything else, to the smaller things – the walk to work using the same streets, my apartment, my friends, Facebook and e-mails. My entire life felt like one big frustration.
I’ve successfully completed my first week back on my path to a healthy life. I have been drinking Herbalife 2x a day and eating vegetables, low fat dairy, nuts, lean protein and fruit. I’ve been drinking water like it’s my job and I am down 9 pounds.
This journey is not only about weight loss. I felt it was my time to make myself happy again. I started blogging more, keeping healthy with diet and exercise, reading and sharing things that inspire me, getting great sleep, setting aside ‘me’ time and doing nice things for people.
I lost 16kg at the end of last year but this year has just been a cloudy mess. I’ve gain 4 kg back and I haven’t felt more disgusting in my life.
I look in the mirror and feel gross and uncomfortable. I started losing weight by using Herbalife for 1 month. After trying desperately to get my head right to lose the rest of the weight, I have been failing. I’ve ordered Herbalife and plan to start that for 1 more month starting on Tuesday (the day after my 26th birthday).