The Bad Side to Public School Teaching in South Korea

I thought now was a good time to do another post about the pros and cons of teaching in South Korea. Actually, this was not written as a blog post, but rather a private e-mail to my friend that I thought I should share for anyone who is considering Public School in South Korea. This is, unfortunately, the bad side of Public School.

“I am just unhappy all of the time because of work. Co teacher even asks now if I am OK, and yesterday the other one said I look depressed. I dread every morning and every day I just want it to be over. This is the worst year I have had in Korea. My last 2 schools had ups and downs, but it’s difficult to find anything I can tolerate here. Continue reading “The Bad Side to Public School Teaching in South Korea”

21 Days to Form a Habit

I’m on day 2 of my challenge to change my lifestyle, lose weight and be a happier version of myself. Yesterday went well. I started using Herbalife again. I had a shake for breakfast and for lunch. I had a chicken breast with lettuce, tomato, mushroom, onion for dinner and I had 2 handfuls of almonds and cucumber as snacks.

I had a a smoothie of milk, banana and a spoonful of protein powder after gym. I did a 50 minute zumba class in the evening. I’ve also started a piggy bank where I will deposit W1000 ($1) every time I exercise.

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My Birthday, A New Beginning

Today is my birthday and it feels like the beginning of a new year for me. A new chapter, a new start. I’ve realised there is a lot that is dysfunctional in my life and I am going to change those things. I’ve done it before and I will do it again. As they say “It’s not about how many times you fall, it’s how many times you get back up.

” Tonight, I am having dinner with 5 of my girl friends and as from tomorrow, I am going straight for all the things I have ever wanted in life. Some may say I am not 100% committed because “on Tuesday” sounds like an excuse.

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My Last Fat Birthday

I lost 16kg at the end of last year but this year has just been a cloudy mess. I’ve gain 4 kg back and I haven’t felt more disgusting in my life.

I look in the mirror and feel gross and uncomfortable. I started losing weight by using Herbalife for 1 month. After trying desperately to get my head right to lose the rest of the weight, I have been failing. I’ve ordered Herbalife and plan to start that for 1 more month starting on Tuesday (the day after my 26th birthday).

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Ruining Everything That Was Good

I’m that girl that causes trouble, sometimes without even noticing it, with men’s girlfriends because I am not happy with myself. I am that girl that takes attention from the wrong places, because any good attention is better the image I see in the mirror or my own thoughts I have of myself in my head.

I’m having a hard time. I feel lost and out of control. I hate myself more because I use every excuse I can find to getting back to a healthy, pro active, constructive life. I validate every reasons as to why I think I am failure. How, I can and never will stick to something.

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Dear 25 Year Old Me

Dear 25 year old me,

I know you were unable to let go of the past. I know you had an undertone of sadness even during the most exciting times of your life, but the truth is – your exciting times were not exactly the healthiest choicest.

You pretended that you did not know why you were upset, why you are afraid to let yourself go and just be you, but you always knew it was your weight holding you back. You felt like a failure in a lot of your life, and giving up, more than once, on your journey to becoming thin and healthy made you feel inadequate again.

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