Feels a little bit odd that just last night I was complaining of being lonely. I mean, to be truthful, I am alone… a lot, but it seems that that actually IS the place I want to be right now. I tend to achieve my goals best when I am focused on only myself.
Today, I went back to the doctor – an ear, nose and throat specialist. As I already knew, he commented on my otitis media but he described it as “chronic” and that I should get an operation for it. I got some more antibiotics, because my glands have been very sore for a week now. Good news, however, I haven’t smoked in 1 week and I’ve lost about 2kg from loss of appetite.
After the doctor, I went to the stationery shop. I hadn’t indulged in my utter obsession for stationery in a very long time, but it really is something I love to do. I was watching a TV show and a girl was making a dream board. I decided that that would be a fun thing to do, considering the fact that I knew I’d be at home all weekend and also, because I plan on getting back onto the straight and narrow in terms of food, exercise, thinking positive, being organized, less anxious and more happy as from Monday. Yes, it sounds arbitrary to say I will only start “being happy” on Monday, essentially what I mean is, it’s all part and parcel and I plan to get my life back together. Back to the place I was in last year, where I lost weight every week, which in turn, lead to me being more happy, confident etc. I have started gathering things that will inspire me for the journey I am about to embark in.
Here is my dream board. My mother just sent me some magazines from South Africa so I used them to make it: