This existence, with nothing but the sound of the rain hitting the roof and a language you don’t understand. Your life has been dismal, and there is nothing you can do about changing the past. There is nothing to change the feelings of regret that you harbour.
I’ve been on my lifestyle change now for seven weeks. I want to call it a diet, but that sounds so – I’ don’t know – blah. It’s been more than a diet. It’s been the opportunity for me to dig deeper, read and do things that inspire me, explore my connection with food, taking time off from men and actually, friends.
I am currently in the process of finding a new job in Korea, starting in March. Having worked for a private English Academy as well as a Public School, I can tell you with confidence that I would always pick working at a Public School. So, I sent my resume and shoulder-length professional photograph (as asked) to a few recruiting agencies in Korea.
I deleted my previous post about how I was feeling like a failure and even though I suppose that is the point of an online journal type of vibe – to no hide anything or sugar coat it – I realise that those feelings were, while valid, a little over exaggerated. I felt a day of disappointment, but I’ve taken some time to get on with all the positive things I’ve been doing and I feel great, once again.
Start with aligning the reds followed by green.” No, red and green don’t look good together, stupid.” Alternate colours. Put them in a straight line. Symmetry. Symmetry.
I found myself having a little cry earlier. It’s finally Saturday and even though I am loving the fact that my life has become a lot fuller, with reading, writing, learning, exercising and focusing on healthy eating as well as work – I am glad I have the day to take it down a notch.