10 Ways Your Life Will Change When You Start To Embrace Who You Are

Can you sit in a coffee shop sans a companion or smartphone, and love every second of it? Many will agree that doing things by yourself feels wrong and anti-social—and for that reason, there’s an almost universal stigma attached to it. We’ve been taught to believe that it’s awkward to travel, dine, or simply be without the presence of another human being.

But for those who embrace themselves and actively participate in whatever activity or opportunity of their choosing, despite having someone they know by their side, magic happens. There’s a real feeling of freedom when you can sit quietly in your own company and just enjoy the moment for what it is.

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And while forming meaningful relationships with friends, family members and partners is important, spending time with and loving yourself leads to 10 very beautiful things.

10. You’ll Become More Worldly & Culturally Sensitive

Having a group of great friends is wonderful, sure. But staying within the same clique for years and years means that you’re not really giving yourself the freedom to talk to and learn about people outside of who you are and what you’re about.

Breaking away from homogeneity, and giving yourself the opportunity to learn from those older than you (yes, they were wild once too, you know!) and erasing preconceived notions about those younger than you, means that you’re more in-tune with the world than five besties that meet every night for a daily bout of gossip.

9. You’ll Reflect (More)

Reflection and engaging in introspection is extremely beneficial as it gives you the time to really look at yourself and the things you have (or have not) achieved. And when you’ve absolutely fallen in love with yourself, you won’t be ashamed to admit that you do have flaws (we all do).

Instead, you’ll actively take the time to work on those flaws whilst trying to improve upon your list of positive characteristics. You’ll think about whether you’re truly happy, and you’ll start to feel inspired to make the necessary changes to live a better and fuller life. Base jumping in Norway? Do it!

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8. You’ll Find Your Passion

While we generally like to hang out with people who share our interests, this often stunts our ability to try something new. You like what you like, your friends like it too—why try something new? So instead of going to that oddly intriguing yoga retreat, you meet your friends for Book Club because yoga isn’t necessarily their cup of tea.

But when you truly become comfortable in your own skin, you’ll say, ‘Screw it!‘ and you’ll go to the yoga retreat…alone. What happens next? No, you don’t die from shame and embarrassment! You’ll find out if you love it or hate it, and you’ll probably meet some new and interesting people along the way.

7. You’ll Travel Freely

Unfortunately, we have to work in order to survive. That means that you and your loved ones will have set working hours with set vacation days and set schedules, yada yada yada. That, in turn, makes it tremendously hard to plan that weekend in Vermont or your yearly trip somewhere in Europe. You find yourself waiting on your friends to book flights, hotels, and to make travel itineraries—only to find out that Kerry suddenly can’t make it and Dan’s wound up with chicken pox. Holiday plans ruined? Heck no!

When you’re happy with your own company, you’ll plan trips spontaneously and frequently. You’ll see what you want, go where you want, and never have to wait on anyone ever again.

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6. You’ll Become More Independent

When you rely on yourself to get things done, you’re automatically bumped up to first class of being an independent human being—so, congratulations!

Many people are too afraid to try something new so they rely on their friends to do it with them. But when you get up and go to where ever it is or whatever it is that you want to experience, you’re allowed to admit to yourself that you really are acing this whole ‘adult’ thing.

5. You’ll Thrive Outside Your Comfort Zone

What are your plans this weekend? The usual Friday night drinks at your favourite bar? Saturday house cleaning? Sunday at the cinema to see the latest rom com? All three of those activities sound like tons of fun, but there really are only so many ways that a man can fall in love with a woman, and—your house won’t cave in if you shift things around a day or two, I promise.

When you’re in love with yourself and in love with life, your Friday, Saturday—heck, even your Tuesday, becomes an unpredictable whirlwind of cool things. “Life’s short“, “YOLO!” and, “Live, Laugh, Love“, you guys! Go out there and take up space in the world.

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4. You’ll Do Things You Never Dreamed Of

Having refrained from personal experience this entire time, it’s time to impart my pearls of wisdom onto you (I’m really just as lost as you are). I never thought I would ever live in Asia, date an American soldier, see 10+ countries in Europe, or become a professional writer (my dream job).

But I got up and made those things happen for myself, by myself. If I had have waited for someone to come with me, I would never have achieved many of those things! It all starts with you.

3. You’ll Live Life On Your Own Terms

We all have special quirks, likes and dislikes. Some are extremely organised and like to stick to a schedule, while others absolutely hate uniformity. But again, when you’re your own best friend, you literally live life on your own terms.

Do you fancy eating a slice of chocolate cake for dessert at your favourite café? Or do you want to sleep in on Saturday whilst listening to cheesy 90’s pop music? Um, yes—of course you do! So do it!

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2. You’ll Find Out Who Your True Friends Are

A lot of people are pretty superficial and only really enjoy getting their own way. So when you’re actively chasing the sun, or having a down day, they’ll get pissy because you’re not in the mood to go to an 80’s themed party with them. And right there—you learn who your true friends are.

Because when people take the time to invest in you and your dream/vision, you’ll do the very same for them. Which means you’ll have to endure the occasional awkward friend-of-a-friend hen party, and you’ll make the effort to visit your bestie at any time of day or night when he/she’s experiencing heartbreak, because that is what real friends do. If they aren’t prepared to be there for the messy stuff, they can’t be there for the fun stuff. End of.

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1. You’ll Say ‘Yes’!

Know the expression, “Everywhere you go, there you will be“? It’s literally true—and if you don’t like yourself very much, life isn’t going to be very fun at all.

Adversely, loving yourself means that you’re happy trying new things and treating yourself in such a way that is mentally and physically stimulating. So the next time a sweaty human at the gym admits that they live a block away from you and that you two should go on evening walks together, say ‘YES!’ The world wanted you to meet that person—meet them!

So, I will leave you with this—life is messy, hard, and unpredictable. You’ll definitely experience deep and uncomfortable sadness once or more in your lifetime, and you’ll also experience that feeling of your heart pounding through your chest the moment you’re about to step outside of your comfort zone. But embrace those vulnerabilities because they really are just as beautiful as your strengths.

“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.” – Dr. Seuss

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Eternity Scares Me More

 

If you think about death…I mean, really think about it, you realise that you are, more likely than not, going to reach a point in your life where you are going to suffer. Most likely, it’ll be a physical pain that you’ve never experienced before, and you’re going to struggle. It’s going to hurt. And that pain could go on for hours and hours, or days. You don’t know the fate that life has in store for you. Does that scare you?

And after, you’re what — transcended into heaven? Forced into hell? Left in purgatory? A spirit left behind to guide those that are still alive? Or are we just done, end? The world will continue to go on and on and on, and we will just be finished…forever.

Or do we come back? Do we get a second or third chance at life? Maybe we finally get the chance to be someone else. Or maybe we’re brought back to a world that is worse than what we perceive it to be right now.

Death scares me, but I fear eternity scares me more.

Something I Am Without

I don’t have enough power within me to

Exhale the smoke from my mouth.

This is what you

Do to me.

And the chaotic busyness

In my stomach is

Painful.

 

It’s the feeling of something or

Someone

Digging their way down deeper and

Deeper.

Awkwardly trying to get to the

Pit.

Where I feel just as

Empty as a vase full of

Dying flowers,

Desperately trying to

Suck in water that would give it

Life.

I am

Without.

Write

I move my cursor to the top right of my screen…”write“, it says. I click on it as it’s too enticing not to.

It’s Sunday and for the first time in months, I haven’t got any work to do. It’s weird. I love my job. I am writer. It sounds so lovely to say even lovelier to say out loud. I work seven days a week. I told myself today would be all about reading poetry and relaxing, but in all honesty—I am so fucking bored.

I did read poetry, dark poetry—Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur. Her poetry is so simple, like anyone could have written it. But at the same time, it has an effect on me. Her words don’t need to be deciphered, twisted, and analysed like the long and strange poetry we were forced to read in high school. They’re straightforward, and true. Perhaps that is why they have an effect on me… that and her brave account of how badly men have treated her.

I’m home in South Africa for now, and I have almost no stress at all. It’s weird. I sit beside the ocean and write. I hear the stillness of the night, I breathe fresh air, I feel the sun on my skin. I feel reality. It’s now my business to know what everyone is getting up to in their lives—and while I couldn’t really care, it’s sometimes nice.

These are my thoughts as the day—and week—come to a close.

Have a happy week, everyone.

x

Feels Like A One-Way Ticket

So many new thoughts have entered my overactive mind in the last few weeks. While I love my adventurous side (and still have a dozen more countries that I would like to see), I have this need to settle down. No, I don’t necessarily mean having kids, getting married, buying a house and investing in things. I mean, I want to find a place that I can call home. This has been all too difficult for the past few years because I’ve had to move apartments, countries and cities every 2-4 months for work or because of a lease that has ended. It’s left me somewhat bitter in that I have to pack up everything I own once again and try to make a new place “homey”. So once again, it’s been a total of 6 weeks in this new place and I have to move out. Just lovely.

When I heard the news 3 weeks ago, I frantically searched real estate websites in Barcelona and even went as far as looking at places in Cape Town and Berlin. I also thought perhaps I’d do a month-long travel through Europe. But moving cities and moving countries means yet again getting used to the area, learning the language and so on and so forth. While that is exciting, I am just not in the place right now.

I’ve been living in Barcelona now for 5 months… and I love it. I am quite sure that I am not convincing myself that I love it because I don’t feel like making a big move. When I think back on the places I have lived throughout my adult life, none feel like home… besides Barcelona. Just my luck though, that places available for March are either utterly shit or too expensive. So, in an attempt to get my ducks in a row, I’ve bought a return ticket to go home for 2 months. In this time, I hope to save my money, come back in May and get a one bedroom place. There’s just one problem with all of this…

Having broken away from life in my home country, people move on – much as the same as I have too. They’re different, I am different. And suddenly, I get the feeling as though they really couldn’t care less that I am coming home. Family and friends probably see me as a burden as I need to crash at their place and rely on them (or public transport) to get around. I hate been reverted back to the state where I rely on others. I’ve recently learned that this is the reason why I love living in a different country. I don’t want nor need the help of others. Additionally, I realised that I don’t really have any one in this entire world that gives a fuck where I am or what I am doing. Sad, but sort of freeing.

So while I will only be spending two months at home, it almost feels wrong. It feels like I’ve bought a one-way ticket to a place where I am “the baby” again, asking for help. I really should be excited but I’m just not.

Sun Rise, Bunker del Carmel Barcelona

I am in need of guidance. While compulsively snapshotting the amazing view of Barcelona, I took a moment to sit quietly, look out and pray. I need something bigger than me to give me the answers. I hope that I find what I am looking for soon.